This is a very long post but I am saying please to all of you to read it.
So hi all,
Many of you from the forum know me well. You know where I am from, how I skate, under what conditions. For those who don’t know, I will repeat, short version.
I live in Serbia, where nobody cares about this wonderful sport. In whole country there are only three ice rinks normal sizes. First is in city Subotica, but it doesn’t have a roof and it’s opened only 3-4 months. Second is in Novi Sad but there are no figure skaters. Only hockey clubs. It’s opened 6 months. So, the one left is in Belgrade, where I live and train. It’s opened 6 months.
So this is another year I have to fight with reality. I (as all other skaters) don’t have where to skate since April to September (only if we be lucky it will be opened then).
I am doing hard off ices, running, imitating jumps off ice, stretching, taking ballet classes. But it’s not the same thing as when you skate.
It’s too hard to get over.
With all my years on the ice, skating became the most important thing in my life. It became my way of life, a thing I live for. Getting up at 4:30 AM and freezing at the rink (those are our conditions), falling up and getting down- it all became a thing I can’t live without. I'd give anything, anything to skate.
This is another summer I have to live nights crying and wishing I am on the ice. Only the taught that someone else in this world can skate now, someone who maybe doesn’t care about skating so much, that all other skaters are preparing their programs now, when I can’t…it’s freaking me out. And also, there is a fear… being afraid of losing what I learnd so hard.
I don’t even know why I worte all these things. But never mind. I guess, since nobody I know wants to take a real conversation with me about this, or they are saying I am crazy, or that I just have to get over it. That many skaters here are having the same situation. I know I should get over it. But nobody I know LOVES skating as much as I do, especially here.
I feel so small and unhelples in this big world. How I wish I could change the world, just for one day!