Saturday was the end of a very long and emotional season. I entered the long in 5th place and a podium was still possible. After a solid warm-up, I was waiting my turn backstage. As much as possible, I didn't want to know how the previous skaters would skate but when I went out of the room, I heard the crowd.
I started my program and felt literally flat. Like if I didn't have the energy left to fight. In the end, I performed a very disappointing four triple jumps program and my overall performance was not as inspired as it should have been. Usually, a six triple jumps program is "ok" for me and a 7 triples program is a good one. I did four that night! I ended the night in 7th place overall. We will never know how I would have scored and where I would have finished had I performed an "ok" or a good program. Oh well... That's all behind us now!
Today, I feel a lot of positive things happened on that night. First, the support of the crowd. All week long, the skating fans were absolutely AMAZING with me. Even after my long, I felt a lot of support. Second, what would it have been if I had found myself in the same situation (last flight, medal contention, very noisy and supportive home crowd, lots of emotions in the previous weeks, fatigue, etc.) for the first time in Vancouver, at the Olympics in 2010? Believe me, I learned from my experience and about the importance of sticking to an original plan during an event because many things can happen meanwhile. I cannot get distracted anymore by other's performances, whether they are good or not. Third, I am more motivated and determined than I have ever been. I think it woke up the little fighter in me that I have always been, back when I was novice. (I was disappointed at my first Nationals in novice where I finished 15th. The year after, I won novice.) Fourth, never ask me for predictions!!!