What is puzzling to me is that you and others are ignoring the very specific, completely chaotic and unusual circumstances in which Papadakis confesses to having such thoughts, and are instead pretending that she was always thinking that. She was upset, and it was one moment. Athletes are human beings, and human beings are going to have emotional reactions to shit like having your top almost fall off midway through a program at the Olympics! And after that moment passed, she went to the victory ceremony and medal ceremony, behaved in a perfectly sporting way and put her own disappointment aside, which is all anyone could ask from her.
For the record, I was rooting for Virtue/Moir in 2018, and I certainly would have preferred them to win without Gabriella's costume almost falling off. But all this shock and horror at the mere possibility that someone admitted to THINKING "if only they would fall" is ridiculous, especially when said team very much did not fall.