I'd love to have a reasonable explanation for this, but I don't. It's not something logical, it's simply one of those feelings where your brain doesn't have a say in. I've told myself multiple times that it's not fair to Alina, and it's not. But I just can't. Like, I recognize her good sides, which she has plenty, but it just stops there. I wanna clarify that I don't hate her, I just don't like her.
And thing is, if someone was saying bad things about Eteri I would fight them. Same for Daniil and Sergey. But in that specific situation, Eteri's words overflowed the cup for me and that was about it. I couldn't look back.
I'm pretty sure that you're aware how much I love that team. So I hope you won't try to spin this as if I have some revenge against the team.
I just wanted to say that I think your posts were very honest and reasonable and not in the slightest could they be perceived as hate, if they were read with common sense at least. We all know how you rooted for Anna and Sasha during JWC and how excited you were to give Daniil and Sergey the presents.
And if we're at it, I'd like to share a confession of my own:
As a person, I really like Alina. In fact, if it was strictly personality wise, I could identify myself with her much more than with Zhenya. She is a bit more shy and introverted, doesn't seek the attention of the media and yet is able to go out there and perform in front of so many people, give interviews. This is something I really admire. I can also really connect with her love for dogs and animals in general. When she once said that animals can be the best friends because they never lie and you can always rely on them, I felt that. But then there's the fact that I'm not that fond of her artistry yet (even though it's remarkable how much she improved since last year) and that Zhenya is still my favorite skater. I don't know why but there's something that drew me in, right from the first time I saw her. I cannot help but root for her and she is the skater that will always hold my heart, as kitschy as it sounds.
And I feel like you, in theory, I have nothing against Eteri. I don't particularly like her, never have, even when Zhenya was still with her. I was okay with her because Zhenya seemed happy. And of course I recognize her strengths. She is incredible, truly the best at strategizing, optimising layouts to gain points and helping her students win a lot in a short period of time. She creates champions and she creates them quickly. Her girls go to seniors and usually sweep the ranks within their first year. So, I do see that and I give her credit for that. She is obviously the best coach at the moment for young girls. However, I cannot agree with how she treats students after they leave her and while I do not hate her and don't want gossip or lies being spread about her, this was the moment it became too much for me. When Zhenya left and she suddenly treated the girl she'd previously named as "the most mature skater of the group, second daughter" as the bad one. Because Zhenya is my favorite, this was the last straw. I don't hate her now either, I just don't really like her.
What does this have to do with Alina? Well, it shouldn't have to do anything. I want Alina, the person, to do well and be happy. She's a young girl and works hard, she deserves nothing but happiness. But I feel conflicted because I have problems with her coach and somehow, I can't keep the two things separate. I don't even know why. It works better with the juniors, maybe, it's because they're not part of this generation.
So, I think what people need to understand is, that these opinions are complicated. So, it's not at all that having problems with Eteri = hating her. It's not as simple as that. I appreciate some of her qualities and I would never go around like some people, making countless posts about how her students should all leave her or how she's the worst coach ever. But the bad things that have happened, kind of overshadow the good things for me. And that's why I have troubles rooting for her students 110% like I do for some other skaters. And I feel guilty about it. I can't change it, though, and I don't think it makes me (or you) a bad person. Those are feelings and opinions and the only thing that makes one bad is spreading lies and insulting. Because this is absolutely not necessary and should never happen, regardless of what we think or feel about somebody.