Bwah ha ha ha ha hahahahahahaha ... nervous, me???!!!?!?!
Funny you should ask (and I may have told this story here before, so forgive me if I have). When I took my first test in July 2002, which was Pre-Bronze FS, I was so nervous that I thought my legs had turned to concrete. I was over prepared for the entire test and yet when I went to do my first jump--a waltz jump--instead of the giant, high flying, stretched out, delayed jump that I had been doing in practice, I swear that I did something that was about a half inch off the ice, right foot brought through only to the left one, with legs all tight together, and this teeny weeny beeny little twisty turn that could have been a toepick rise and nothing else. It was PATHETIC! This was so shocking to me that it jarred me out of my coma and I did much better on everything else. Imagine the judges' surprise that the person who could barely leave the ice for the waltz jump suddenly was ending her "program" (you don't use music on this one) with a gargantuan flip jump! Phew, pulled that one off.
So, when it's time to test Bronze MIF, I worked very hard on my mental state and did lots of mental exercises to reduce my fear/nervousness. Unfortunately, I did this WAAAAY to well. During the slide chasses pattern, I kind of "zoned out" and just let my body take over. It was kind of like sleep walking. At one point in the middle of the four moves, I looked out toward the edges of the rink and saw this woman watching me test. I was all surprised and thought to myself, "Oh my gosh, look at that, Sue is here at the rink. How nice!"
Trouble is, Sue is my COACH and OF COURSE she was there because I was in the middle of a TEST and I suddenly wasn't even sure which part of the test I was in or whether I had completed all 4 repeats of the pattern!! (Luckily my body just kept going and I passed that move with flying colors. Now that's a little TOO relaxed!)
Afterwards, she asked me what was going through my head because my face had registered both my shock when I first saw her and then a bit of confusion as I awoke from my stupor.
So now I make sure I am in the zone, but somewhere between comatose and deer in the headlights.
Q: What is something that you've accomplished recently skating-wise that you are most proud of?