In 2005:
It was one week till the beginning of the championships.
We had to take a decision whether to go or not. We were at the crossroads. On one side the Worlds was taking place in Russia for the first time, on another side – the pain was enormous; without the injection I could not walk, not to speak about jumping.
Then Mishin suggested:
- Let’s go to Moscow, we shall explain the situation. We shall say you cannot jump and you will not take part in the competition.
And we decided to go.
One day before the competition begins.
I went to train. The pain was less. I started jumping. All seemed normal. I could do the triples. I could do the three and a half. The quadruples I did not even try. It was not possible – the left crucial leg hurts like hell.
We went to a Moscow hospital. They said the same – a pull or micro rhexis. And we decided that I should skate.
At the evening I rang up mom:
- Mom, we have decided that I should skate.
- Skate? How? You haven’t skated at all, - mom was shocked.
- I have to. I will try. They give me anaesthetics.
World championships. First day.
I go to skate the qualification. I do the necessary figures and the jumps.
There is one minute left from my program and suddenly I feel that I cannot even breathe. I could neither breathe in or breathe out – this was a fit of intercostals neuralgia. And it was so strong that I had forgotten the pain in the groin. One instance more and I would lose conscience.
I cannot take a breath and I have to skate more – to do the rotation, then the step sequence and a rotation again. I did all.
I go to sit on the bench and I writhe up with pain. Mishin notices that I am nearly dead and says:
- Zhanya, is it normal? Do not show anybody that you feel bad.
And I sat as if nothing has happened and even tried to smile as far as I can remember. But it was awful.
World Championships, second day.
I wake up and I realize I cannot walk. My left leg is very heavy, as if it is not mine. But we with Alexey Nikolaevich take a final decision that I should skate.
It was the day of the short program. I was given some strong anaesthetics.
Warm-up. Usually when I go out and look at the audience I can clearly see the faces. I see the clothes of the people, the expression of their faces, I even look them into the eyes. This time I could not see anybody – only silhouettes, everything blurred in front of my eyes from the pain.
The warm up was almost normal. It is true, the quadruple I did not even try. We decide again – I shall skate the short.
I go to perform and fall down on the quadruple. The pain in the groin comes again and stronger than before. No anaesthetics can stop it any more.
But I skate till the end. And I become the third. I still had the chance to become a champion of the world for 2005. For this, I had to skate the same elements which I had shown at the qualification.
World championships. Third day.
This was the day of the free program. I woke up in the morning and realized I could not get up. Every movement was a torture. The pain was beating all over my body.
I rang mom up:
- Mom, I cannot walk, sit or lie down. And today is the free program.
- Zhenya, don’t dare to skate! – Mom understood immediately that I was not simply feeling bad, I was on the verge between life and death. – You have already won three championships! I know you have to fight for Russia, but if you can’t you have to refuse and go away from the competition. Take care of your health, the next year is very important for us.
Then mom rang Mishin up:
- Alexey Nikolaevich, I don’t know your opinion, but I forbid him to skate.
In spite of all, we hoped till the last minute that the pain would stop. We waited for a miracle to happen. I did not allow any injections any more, I had had enough.
No miracle happened though.
I wrote down an explanation that I would not participate.
The World championships in 2005 in Moscow was won by the Swiss Stephane Lambiel.
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his first show after injury
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Piijc1x748 the Winner..So true