I think You have a point there.
It reminds me kind of myself often put by others as a 'leader' in many situations at work - while those people see that quality, pre-disposition in me from the 'outside' perspective, I'm not feeling it at all, or I feel not comfortable with it. Sure, that kind of assessment is flattering to hear, but not everyone can manage to cope with it well said aloud. I'm one of those weirdos who really cannot see myself put on the front, in the lead by others - the only circumstance I'd get it better, is the situation of making myself on that position out from individual preferrence. I'm following more of 'better steady following than unsure leading' philosophy.
Apologies for a lenghty beginning, but I feel too that the spotlight of 'the top leader of the pack' at NHK in Yuzuru's absence, voiced out by so many people, made Jason distracted and forced into position he is not yet comfortable with nor taught to handle with comfort and ease. It was really more about pressure 'pumped' from outside on him than the sole circumstances of competition or important things at stake, like Olympic spots at last Worlds. Those past events were difficult and on high pressure, but the spotlight was never focused only on Jason - actually, if we can take Helsinki, almost all focus/interest - and pressure - was laid on Nathan and we saw how it ended, combining it with boots problems. Jason strikes me as person who enjoy good, steady and motivational path of 'following' that should take him to more 'leading' one, but at the right place and time - moreover, his 'down-to-earth', openly positive attitude that got him this far with his skill and development of it seemed to be a second-guess today, instead of primarly lead feature. He did not only feel distracted, but also kind of unusually tense and constrained at places - I understand that some of young skaters may enjoy and feel flattered by being a highlight of the most anticipated event at NHK in front of one of the best audiences in the World, but this is not Jason's perspective to strive I feel, at least for now.
Paradox thought I have is that this kind of experience could make him even more sure about path he wants to follow and motivated to progress, challenge himself in that way. Maybe he needed this kind of difficult to take, but learning experience? I know it made his GPF chance bad, but I don't think that this will mess with his head worse than NHK experience. I hope there will be plenty chances of performing, trying and getting there towards Nationals. Skating and the quality of it won't go anywhere, it is only the matter to make it effective in right time, I know he's capable of that.
hugs to All