I wonder if there was a part of me that selfishly decided that I wasn't born under that kind of star.
But when I look back on my past, there are times when I think it can't be helped. After all, the experience of standing in a place where such light hits was overwhelmingly small.
You may think, "No, no," but I'm not used to standing out in international matches. I didn't have many medals when I was a junior, and because I didn't have a lot of experience when I was young, there was a part where I couldn't help but think, "I'm...".
There are many pinch hitters, and I wonder if I can fight and have the power to win. It was difficult because I always thought so deep in my heart.