Ah, man, I know it's hard, but I'm already pretty jaded when it comes to his meltdowns and falls. I wish things had been different, but it is what it is. I still feel like his SP was good and he has to see that as a step up. It's still too soon after the way he was at Nats, and there's a new layout and combos. He has to work on those things, but he had such a good practice this morning, I hope he can build on that.
It's just the culmination of this entire season tbh. I didn't cry after the team event and I didn't cry after his Grand Prix assignments, but to be taken from those lows to the high of Russian Nats, the SP, and his successful practices to....this was like getting hit by a train.
I knew after Samarin and Javier that he wasn't going to win. I just hoped he would do enough to stay on the podium. But I wasn't prepared for anything like that, even the way he fell was so unlike anything I've ever seen him do before.
I try to be optimistic about the future, but again, I don't see how he is going to come back from months of disappointment. It's one thing to have messy skates and bronze medals like last season, and maybe a meltdown or two. It's quite another thing to have all the raw material to win—fantastic programs, fantastic talent, sometimes even a fantastic SP—and mess up so badly over and over again that you consistently find yourself off the podium. I'm really sorry for being pessimistic, and if I should delete let me know, but I'm just crushed by sadness right now and I don't know if I can keep watching FS this season.


