I am so appreciative of all the advice.
I received my first face to face comment today, " you look good out there, do you have a coach?"

I said no. "You really seem to love skating, maybe you should look into that." (Does someone know me from the forum???) I giggled and was kind of shy because I think she was kind of young (17 or 18). I backed up and told her she is definitely right about me needing a coach, and I was going to stop jumping unless I get one....blaa blaa... I also said feel free to comment anytime, I don't plan on being serious but I don't want to screw myself up either.
I think she was there with her little sister or something. Anyway it made me feel like finally a set of eyes.:agree: She looked like she was favoring one leg when she was standing but I don't remember ever seeing her. So if that is someone from the forum don't be insulted. I am very "head down" and loaner mentality when I go skating alone.
No Jumps today - not even a real attempt at a full flip (funny that was mentioned), my heart just wasn't in it due to the idea I must be doing something wrong and like people are saying - learn it wrong and you could hurt yourself or have to relearn it. I did do little hops between 2 sequential spins a few times but couldn't get the second one going with any speed.
Now I felt a little funny skating a little like I was dancing with a broom (picturing Ben and Tanith - now that I think about it Tanith was probably bad to picture because I am sure my face was all "googly eyed" looking

), but if there is one aspect I love the most is the feeling and sound of the blades on the ice

So not attempting jumps and working on spinning was still Oh so gratifying. And getting a commit made me feel like this was a good direction for me. I have a few things on my "plate of life" right now so couldn't comment to a regular skating schedule immediately. Maybe I will put out the hint for my Birthday. By then I should be settled in somewhere. ????
BTW, I think the comments of "tense" were very helpful to me today. I always knew I needed to relax, but the correlations made here were making sence to me more then ever. It was nice just to relax and "feel."

Plus it brought back memories of broadway show choir in high school.
Thanks everyone, this likely saved me from another concussion.:agree:
"G" I will start working on some of the suggestions you had - in some ways I have already started, waltz. Today just seemed like "acceptance day."