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"The important thing is..." message to Mao Asada from Akiko Suzuki
There is a rumor of the retirement of Mao Asada-senshu. Daisuke Takahashi-senshu announced the one-year rest. Do you have any advise for the skaters who are in two minds about the retirement?
Each skater has his/her own mind for the skating and I think they are at a loss very much. I would advise them to think about "something you are able to do only now". Continue or not...it is their decision after all. The important thing is their feelings, so the answers must not be rushed. I hope people watch over them quietly. I continued competitive skating after the Vancouver Olympics, but it was one year before the Sochi Olympics that I decided to aim for Sochi. As for meantime, I was asked dozens of times, hundreds of times, "Are you going to aim for the Olympics, aren't you?", but I was thinking, "that's not what I intend...". The Olympics is a big competition, but I had not skated only for it.
It is possible to quit it anytime, isn't it?
I may think it is okay for them to have a choice "not to give a conclusion immediately". I don't want them to regret for their decisions in the last, I want them to think about it slowly and carefully. When they encounter with many people and see various things, they might think about it in different way. I want them to ponder over it being true to themselves and face themselves. I was led to the conclusion that I would retire because I could find what I wanted to do next and see the vision of me. Most of the figure skaters have continued only skating in all their lives, so if that fact is gone, we lose everything. When we find the next goal or dream, we'd better compare those and the passion for the competition. When I considered my future, I thought "I will do my best. Now." The coaches also said to me "Your career will lead to the next world". Participating in the Olympics or getting medals are going to broad the capacity of what I want to do in future. It's kind of "job hunting" to be a professional skater and a choreographer. You can see your future only by trying very hard now. If you want to be a professional skater, you have to become a skater who is invited to the shows. If you want to be a coach, you have to be a skater who is wished to be a coach. If you decide what you do in the rest of your competitive life taking future activities into an account, your possibility is going to be opened more. The more and more the skaters continue competitive skating for a long time, the more and more they give their passion, they feel the retirement equals to the end of their lives, but it is not. I may think they are allowed to continue competitive skating until they find something they are willing to do more.
In April, you have published your first book, "One by one. Little by little".
Yes. I had an idea that I wish I could tell what I got from past 22 years of my skating life in publishing a book. I am very glad that many people have read it right after it was released. Of course, many of the readers are figure skating fans, but I often hear the voices from them that they want non-fans to read it. That is what I have wished in publishing a book, so I am happy.
It is different from both the normal sports nonfiction and so-called autobiography.
Yes. I gave a book importantly this time, but my experience is only one case. All the people live with various troubles. It ranges from a small trouble to desperate one. I wish people suffering from school or work, people who are in pain or who can not produce results even with making efforts read this book. There are a lot of great self-culture books, but I hope this book is going to be some hints for them by reading my experience. When someone stumbles or has troubles, it would be great if this book was going to support them and attach a hand to their back softly.
Why did you put the title "One by one. Little by little."?
It was because I have lived my life in such a way. When I learn how to jump or change something, I am the type of person who takes time. There are the type of people who can do what they are told immediately, but I am not. I have to practice several times as other people to master. Therefore, I have built up efforts one by one, little by little. Nothing is going to lead to the future unless trying hard what I can do now. Of course, it will need a lot of patience to do something you can do little by little. I am often asked, "Are you tired of doing that?", but like it or not, that's the only way I can live.
Sometimes the things don't go well in our everyday lives, sometimes we are not willing to do anything. What should we do in such a case?
We sometimes have the time the things don't go well or we can't go forward in our lives. The more we try hard, the more we may feel be burdened. In such a situation, we should thank for a small thing. Because our minds can be changed by being thankful. Very small thing can be fine. It is important to laugh in the hard times. If you smile to someone, they smile back. If you are not able to laugh, only smiling is enough. If it is impossible, just say hello lively, with that alone something changes.
It is written about the time when you suffered from an eating disorder in this book.
Yes. I got out of shape right after I entered the university, and the weight that was 48 kilos had decreased to 32 kilos. It was the eating disorder which didn't allow me to even get a meal. Not to mention skating, I couldn't eat and walk. Because physical strength declined, it was difficult to sleep well. I was 18 years old, it was 11 years ago from now.
Did you ever think that you would appear in the Olympics twice in the future at that time?
I couldn't even imagine at all. Even if a person from the future came to tell us "Akiko Suzuki will compete in the Olympics twice", nobody must have believed that. And the same for me. Because I was barely enough to stand still. My mother tells me, "You were really like a ghost". But I was able to recover from there because she accepted me who could not have even a meal, because my coach Hiroshi Nagakubo had kept watching over me who couldn't skate. I went up the stairs one by one, little by little, after I overcame the eating disorder. It was impossible for me to do what I was able to handle easily when I was in the elementary school, but I tried to think "I'm not going back, but going forward", and the practice became fun.
Have you changed by having experienced the disease?
Before I became ill, I was a perfectionist even though I was not perfect. I set a hurdle high without knowing it and fell into self-hate because I couldn't jump over it. However, I came to leave some points that I can say "Oh, well" after I got sick.
I did not have the flexibility until I was 18 years old because I had considered being stoic as the only strength. But it is fragile without a part of easy-going. So I tried to have "Oh, well" part on purpose.
Your 22-years of competitive life was over. Please tell me your future aim.
I'd like to increase the number of people who like figure skating as much as possible. I want to become a missionary of that purpose. Participating in the Olympics or the world championships and retiring, both were the big turning points but those were the only passage points in my long life. I put a period on my competitive life, but I continue skating as a pro while my body moves. I hope I will be able to tell the children "there is future" through my skating. And my biggest dream is to become a world-famous choreographer. I am thinking of telling the hard-working skating kids about the joy in their skating, and at the same time, I want to teach them how to invest emotions into their performances along with the basic technique and expression.