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This is the rest if the interview:
Part 2 of the Continuation of the interview between Arakawa Shizuka and Yuzuru Hanyu
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Narrator: This young boy, who started skating when he was 4 years old, always carried the Olympic dream in his heart.
AS: You were born in 1994, right?
Y: Yes:
As: So I guess the first Olympics that you were really aware of when you were watching were the Salt Lake City Olympics?
Y: Yes, that’s right.
AS: When did you start to really think that you would like to take part in the Olympics?
Y: At that time there was the Super Final, wasn’t there? There was a short program and a free program in the heats and then another free program.
AS: In the final the athletes had to do the free program.
Y: When I saw that I thought that I really wanted to take part in that. From then on that feeling stayed with me. After watching the Salt Lake City games I really thought I definitely want to compete on that stage. The Olympic stage is different from any other. Now the number of performances is fewer than before but the weight of feeling that has to go into just those two programs is something that I felt very strongly, so I have been thinking since then that I definitely want to compete in the Olympics.
AS: In the run up to the Olympics what kind or feelings or things do you find fascinating?
Y: All of the athletes are putting four years of effort on the line. They are actually putting their athletic life on the line. In other competitions, all of the athletes are always trying their best, but as for the Olympics, the weight of the event is much heavier. I certainly get that feeling from the athletes around me.
AS: You are about half a year out from your first Olympics, what this is your number 1 goal in the Sochi games?
Y: Well, as for myself, I feel the Olympics like it is just another competition and that there is an Olympic season every 4 years. The Olympics isn’t the only competition in the season and as it is just a competition I want to do my best in it. However, on the other hand, the four years before the Olympics are all in preparation for the event and this is something I think about, too. Especially, now in this season, it is getting closer and it feels important, like it is an important period of time so I want to spend that time carefully. I don’t know when I will leave the sport; I don’t know when I could be injured so the Olympics are an event with a lot of drama. I want to keep my spirit up, work methodically, train properly and clear the goals I have set. If I do that and feel like I have done the best preparation possible for me, in the end, I don’t know how the actual performance will go, but I think I will probably think I have done enough.
AS: Now you are 18, you will be 19 when you take part in the Olympics. Most of the athletes, when they are in their teens they are just aiming to participate. How do you feel about it? Where does it figure in the span of your skating career? Are you past the halfway point? Generally, how do you feel about it?
Y: I just want to give my all. I know this won’t be the end for me. It isn’t the end of my life either; I will be able to continue on. The Olympics, the Sochi Olympics will only happen once, so I want to treasure the Sochi Olympics and compete with all my might. For example, if I participate in the Peyongchan Olympics or even the one after that, in terms of age it would still be possible I don’t want to have any regrets. I want the Sochi Olympics to be an event where I truly give my all. That is if I am selected for the team.
Narrator: The charm point of Hanyu Yuzuru’s skating.
AS: It is the way he gets people to see him. The way he is able to show himself and have people react to him is amazing, given his young age. I think most people will gather around the fact that he jumps so well but even when I saw him when he was a small boy I thought that his spins were really good. That's one of the strongest impressions I have of him as a skater.
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Narrator: Things that cause Hanyu Yuzuru to shed tears.
Y: There are a lot of things that make me cry. I am a bit of a cry-baby. I cry if I am lonely, I cry if I am happy, I cry if I’m frustrated. I also cry if I feel moved. For example, after the big disaster, I was invited to skate in a charity show in Kobe and lots of people stood up and clapped for me. That was very moving and even now that is an emotional memory for me.
Narrator: Before he begins his challenge for the Olympic games….
Y: I have a lot of questions I want to ask you.
AS: Really? You have questions?
Y: Is it ok to ask you?
AS: Yes, ask me anything.
Y: I have never competed in an Olympics, so I’m anxious about what kind of event it is. When I am practicing, I kind of have an awareness of the Olympics in my mind, that this is the Olympic season and I feel like I am being pulled into thinking about it.
AS: So you feel you are being forced to think about it too much?
Y: Yes. So I think that will make me tired. If even when I am practicing, I think too much about the Olympics what should I do?
AS: I made an effort not to think about it too much. I also tried to focus, at the beginning of the season, about when I wanted to peak. Of course I wanted to peak at the Olympics but before that there are few other competitions that I needed to compete in. Japanese Nationals for example, it was not a competition that I could not participate in so finding that balance was a really difficult thing. I entered the season making an effort to push down feelings about the Olympics and I didn’t do well in some competitions. I knew I had to be first or second to make it to the GP Finals and I was really nervous about that. So even though I was desperately trying to fight to keep myself calm my feelings kind of got the better of me and I didn’t want to peak at the Japanese Nationals That was a real struggle within myself. Maintaining that just under the peak performance through the season was really difficult. When I actually got to the Olympic competition then it was easy for me as I knew I just had to peak. But in the preparation to peak at just the right time was really difficult for me and it didn’t go so well. It is hard to control the pitch of things.
Y: What I find difficult is that the Japanese Nationals are really hard. Of course I have the feeling that I want to get to the Olympics but to do that I need to win Nationals. Between the Nationals and the Olympics these is a gap of about 2 months and it isn’t possible to maintain peak condition for that long. I know I will definitely need to reduce the pitch of …
AS: Yes, the way to live through the season is really difficult. I have always thought so and it was particularly true in the Olympic season. At that time, Mao-chan (Asada Mao) was just coming out and the juniors are moving up into senior competition. Around September, the juniors start to prepare for the GP finals and in October and November they are just about ready. I knew I was going to compete against them but I also knew I had to place well in terms of results and so I probably was trying too hard and kept thinking I need to calm down a bit. That internal struggle of having to do well and of not peaking too early was tough. Also, the people around me had to react to my not so good competition results and deal with my mental condition. And that was something that I became aware of and started to understand. There are a lot of things that happen but you just need to stick to your plan and not panic when things do go exactly the way you want them to.
Y: The feeling of pushing down feelings to stay calm is always there, but I find that I just tend to try to keep doing my best all of the time and in the end I get injured. When my general condition drops I get frustrated and think that I just need to practice even harder. So when I think about when I want to peak should I let my condition drop in between times?
AS: In the period before the season starts you should just let yourself go. At the start of the season I was overweight when I started to practice and once the season started I dropped weight little by little in a controlled way and that made practice easier. In the off time before the Olympic season I was quite chubby. It felt like I was practicing while carrying weights. Even now when I think about how to control getting oneself into peak condition at the right times is really difficult. That is the eternal problem all athletes need to work on. I would say though, after Nationals, you have about a month and a half when you can just let yourself go a little bit. Just after the nationals there is time to relax a bit and then get ready to go again.
Y: I should try to “reset” after Nationals. I feel very privileged to have listened to your words.
Narrator: Moments that Hanyu Yuzuru feels are important.
Y: When I choose earphones. I really like looking at earphones and headphones, I think that is now the thing I really enjoy most. Also, now I am living in Canada. My mother is there with me but my whole family isn’t together so we don’t have so many chances to meet. So when we come back to Japan and all four of us can have dinner together, or lunch together, just eating together is something that I really enjoy.
Narrator: Where is the skate who was born in Sendai going next?
AS: So this is the end of your teen years and it will be a season in which you challenge for the Olympics, is there anything you want to do before you are out of your teens?
Y: Ehhhhh What would that be???? I never really think about what I want to do by a certain age. I haven’t thought about what age I want to retire at or at what age I would like to turn pro I can’t really decide things like that when it comes to skating or I don’t want to think about it.
AS: What is your ultimate goal as a skater?
Y: As an athlete I want to keep giving my all to the very end. I don’t want to lose my passion for skating and my skating core and as long as I have that I want to keep skating. So even though this will be the last Olympics of my teenage years I want to give my all, even if I get burnt out due to the effort, or even if I give an embarrassingly bad performance by falling, that will be ok.
AS: You think you will be ok with that. I think you will hate it if that happens.
Y: Even if I flub my steps….
AS: You sound like you want to make the challenge really difficult for yourself
Y: If I do that then even in the next Olympics I won’t regret not having made a big enough effort for this one. If I give my all in the Sochi Olympics I will learn many things.
AS: Without trying to protect yourself from the future you approach it like it is your only Olympics. I really want to see you doing your best. I am waiting to cheer for you and support you.
Y: I don’t yet know about the Olympics I just want to do what I can at this age.
AS: Now you are involved with a lot of things it is not your last year and not the season you need to feel protective of.
Y: I want to end the season with no regrets.
AS: Do your best, please.
Y: Yes.
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Final message
Y: There are a lot of things going on in this season and a need to try even harder that I have been so far. But I know I will do my best from now on. This means in each of the competitions, not just at the Olympics. I want to return in my performances all of the help and support that I have been given by the many people around me. I really want to do my best. Please cheer for me from now on. Thank you very much.
Narrator: As he said himself, he has experienced the natural disaster, he knows that there are many things that still can do. The Skater Hanyu Yuzuru, even under the weight of expectation from so many people he looks like he is enjoying himself. With this big competition that only comes around once in four years, we can see that he has twinkles in his eyes.
AS : We didn’t really talk about so many things…
Y:I got to ask you the things I wanted to ask you so I am very satisfied.
As: Really?
Y: Yes.
The End