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- Mar 25, 2018
Sorry for kinda spamming, seeing as this is my 3rd post in the last 10min, but I just wanna talk about it.
The reason why I suggested that maybe taking a season off might be good, because what I just saw pretty much resembles my feelings at the beginning of the year about my studies. Yes, that's very different, I know, but I know the feeling of going out with thoughts like "here we go again, I'm gonna do bad again, (in my case, I'm gonna fail again and have to retake the course)", and it's a really crappy feeling. So I ended up taking a break. It didn't make me love it again, but at least it helped me sort out my thoughts. I think after this competition that is what she needs to do too.
I will follow her and watch all future videos of her, no matter what. I just want her to feel better again, regardless of what she's doing.
I actually felt the same some years ago. I was an athlete too, with national callings and podium at nats (not skating) but around Zhenya's age everything was a mess. I had to quit, I started at the universty with the feeling off "now what? my life is not the same, so many changes... I'm not even good at what I used to do anymore. I'm not worth it anymore." and it was terrible. Zhenya has gone abroad, to a new country, with a new coach, after an injury that almost made her lose her Olympic spot... I can empathyse with her and I know she will survive this. I'm sure TCC also has an excellent panel of psychologists and therapists to help her. She's not alone in this.

