Today, watching the ex, i was reminded of why i love him so much. I realized that I want him to win because i want to see him smile, but the reality is that i just want to see him skate. It amazes me how someone so far away, gliding so gracefully over the ice, is capable of making me feel such things, taking me on an emotional journey that soothes my heart and makes me smile like i hadn't smiled in years. Even if he wasn't the technical monster he is, i'm sure he still would have captured my heart like he did: there was no chance to fight, that young Romeo from 2014 took it and kept it captive for three years popping every now and then until i couldn't ignore him anymore.
I'm so grateful that i can be alive to watch him, and this only chased away any doubt i had: if he's assigned to Skate Canada again, i will be there, no matter that he never wins Skate Canada and his performance isn't stellar there. I want to cheer for him right there, and perhaps take my heart back before he goes, or else I'm afraid it will irremediably live in Japan forever (not that it didn't before).
I'm sure he learned a lot from this competition, and truly became a test for next year. He has another reason to fight, and I'm looking forward to what that inner fire that will be reawakened will bring us.
I'm sorry for this long post, but, who else could understand this if not other people under his spell

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