- Joined
- Nov 12, 2012
Dropped by to take something off my chest of bit.
Tomorrow is anniversary lunch at work meeting. I've got the invite since 5 years passed in July. Debated for a whole week whether to accept or decline. Accepted finally. Starting to regret it as very self-conscious person who cringe at the way I look, speak, walk or eat. I fear not feeling adequate there. Doing day to day work by the desk, shielded by monitors is easy, dealing with people in real life seems scary.
Trying to implement my 'I'm going for FS competition and will do my best to have at least neutral facial expression and willingness to socialise' strategy. Hope I can get through it. And prove to myself I can enjoy this kind of thing despite my shortcomings.
I'm just tired of things, opportunities passing by and me being too scared to get on them.
Tomorrow is anniversary lunch at work meeting. I've got the invite since 5 years passed in July. Debated for a whole week whether to accept or decline. Accepted finally. Starting to regret it as very self-conscious person who cringe at the way I look, speak, walk or eat. I fear not feeling adequate there. Doing day to day work by the desk, shielded by monitors is easy, dealing with people in real life seems scary.
Trying to implement my 'I'm going for FS competition and will do my best to have at least neutral facial expression and willingness to socialise' strategy. Hope I can get through it. And prove to myself I can enjoy this kind of thing despite my shortcomings.
I'm just tired of things, opportunities passing by and me being too scared to get on them.