I kind of didn’t want to post this, but I figured that I might as well let it all out. Don’t hate me for this!
Truth be told, a huge part of the reason why I wanted Zhenya to win this thing so badly was because I honestly think that she won’t get the chance to go to the Olympics again. Before you shoot me for being negative, look at the ladies’ field in Russia. Incredibly deep, and these girls are training things that our Zhenya frankly can’t do. Quads, triple axels...as far as we know, she hasn’t been able to actually do these in her practice yet (speculation is not confirmation). Zhenya gets by on her PCS and high GOEs more than anything. Could she theoretically learn how to do these things? Yes, but we can’t put our money on it, because there’s a high chance that she won’t be able to. 3 spots in each division for each country. In 4 years, this sport is going to be completely different than it is now. I mean, look at the difference between Sochi and Pyeongchang!
Obviously, I think Evgenia absolutely deserves and should be able to go. Unfortunately, the judging is so out of whack nowadays with all the PCS inflation that unless she somehow magically acquires a bunch of quads and a triple axel, she’s out of luck...the newer little Russian girls will no doubt see crazy PCS rises due to their tech content, and there will be a large amount of people like Alina soon. I know that this has worked to Zhenya’s advantage in the past. I know that she herself had a rapid PCS rise but it wasn’t anywhere near the extent of Alina’s.
Zhenya’s time of dominance is up, and we have to get used to her not winning all the time now. It really sucks because if it were up to me she’d be at the top for her entire career! Like Yatagarasu said, RusFed has dropped our little bear. At this point, no matter how well she does, if they don’t want to back her up there’s literally nothing that can be done about it.
I’m not saying this to be all dramatic and to bring everyone down. It’s a realistic outlook (I know everyone wants to be all positive and whatnot but the elephant in the room seriously needs to be addressed), but I want to clarify that I WOULD BE INCREDIBLY HAPPY TO BE PROVEN WRONG. But I’m tired of pretending everything is much better than it actually is. The new ones are always going to upstage the “old” (she’s 18 ahdnfkbldbgk I hate this) ones, that’s the way life works. Even people like Yuzuru are going to be surpassed one day.
I don’t want to hear anyone say “Why don’t you have faith in Zhenya?!11!?!!” because I do. I have 100% confidence that she’s going to perform to the very best of her ability, and that she’s going to make me extremely proud. It’s the judges and the way things are set up now that I don’t trust. Unless it changes, we’re out of luck.
I’m not going to watch the event or even look at the results. I’ve got exams coming up, and I don’t want to spend this time being bitter and upset! I especially don’t want to take anything out on Alina, either, because it’s not her fault and wishing for her to fall would make me feel disgusted with myself. No matter what though, Evgenia will always be a winner to me, and I’m so incredibly thankful that I came to know of her existence because she really brings some much-needed happiness into my life.