Wow. It will take some time to truly process this (although, realistically, we all knew the day would come eventually). For now, it all still feels unreal somehow.
On the one hand, I can hardly believe it because, really, figure skating without Yuzuru Hanyu? Does that sport even exist?? It feels like he's been with us for so long, given so much to the sport, and truly defined it for at least the past two Olympic cycles. I also think that, at least artistically (and technically, too, in some aspects), he's retiring at his peak. Who else could skate a program like Rondo, with 6 crossovers in total and transitions galore and make it look
that incredible? For this reason alone, I'll probably always wonder what would have happened if he'd been treated differently by the ISU and hadn't had such bad luck in Beijing. But those are my personal feelings as a fan to work through and have nothing to do with Hanyu and his decision.
More important is, that he's free. Free from the ISU, free from their rules, free from the restrictions of competitions. He can skate wherever he wants now, to whatever he wants to, with jumps or without them. He seemed happy and relieved about that and like he has a tons of plans, which is exciting. That he still wants to chase the 4A, but on his own terms, is hilarious and peak Yuzu. He just wants to do it for himself and the fans and doesn't care whether it'll be recognised by the ISU, and I love that for him.
So, mostly it's a mix of feelings for me. Sadness, shock, but also relief, gratitude for the amazing things he's done and we were able to witness, and a lot of curiosity what THAT will do to my already dying interest in the sport. And good luck to the ISU, who now have to fill their seats without the current OGMs and without Yuzuru Hanyu. I don't envy the position they're in, although I'm petty enough to think they deserve it
Btw, if anyone wants to take a trip down memory lane (or find programs they haven't had a chance to see), this youtube channel has collected programs from his entire career.