“And love is not a victory march. It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah.”
Patrick’s love of skating is certainly not a victory march right now, and in the SC LP, it manifested itself as a broken Hallelujah. Patrick skated brokenly, tiredly, like a skater at the end of his rope whose strength is nearly gone. And yet, there was still such beauty in it, a sense of rawness and deep emotion. The first time I watched the LP, I had the sound muted on my TV because I wanted to see the program with the clarity of TV but, knowing what happened, wanted zero commentary. This is what I learned: THIS PROGRAM HAS SO MANY BEAUTIFUL IMAGES!!!

AT ANY MOMENT IN IT, YOU CAN TAKE A SNAPSHOT THAT WOULD SAY SO MUCH!!! The truly amazing part is that the artistic intent of the program comes through so strongly even without music. And then I watched the No Commentary Video online with the sound on, and the music merely added to the beauty that was already inherent in the movement and artistic expression. Patrick’s skating can, in fact, mesmerize me without any music.

(I doubt I will be showing this specific performance to any of my non-fan friends though). I felt as though I was watching a JO performance, but unfortunately it was happening at SC. Patrick looked shocked when he got up from the 4T and so then he seemingly rushed all the other jumps. The 3F at the end was beautiful though. Even when it’s broken and difficult to give, a Hallelujah is still a Hallelujah. I am so grateful that Patrick is still competing, so he could give us these two programs, regardless of how the jumps go. Plus, I

both costumes this season so much!!!
I love it and hate it that Patrick is so incredibly open in interviews. It’s nice to know what he’s thinking, but at the same time, he’s so blunt when he’s frustrated that it hurts my heart.

All I want to do right now is give him a nice long hug without saying anything!!! :yes: (I know this will never happen, as I am a very insignificant fan appreciating him from afar). From Bev Smith’s article, we learned a few things:
- Confirmation that Patrick missed Nebelhorn because he wasn’t comfortable in new boots yet. He “hated” to miss it.
- At the moment, Patrick feels out of place in the current men’s field (which saddens me greatly because he sounded so content and upbeat after 2017 Worlds). “I mean, look at me. I’m trying to find the good in this footwork sequence, when everyone is doing quads. Not much positive I can say at this event, but it’s okay.” (For the record, I did enjoy both step sequences a lot, and the spins were fabulous as well).
- Somewhere in his mind, he knows he should keep fighting. “But sometimes you’ve got to define when to push yourself through the tough times. When you really don’t want to, you have to push yourself or whether it does mean just pulling yourself back.“ (From everything I’ve read so far, I think he will go to NHK, but we’ll know soon enough).
- The crowd still showed him the love after the LP! :luv17: “The heartwarming part, the heartbreaking part, was that when Patrick took his final, wilted bow, the crowd at the Brandt Centre began to stand and cheer. And cheer for Patrick Chan.”
Forgive me for this long and somewhat rambling post. Welcome to all the new and newly returned posters!!!

The atmosphere here right now is better than after Sochi, and this SC was actually a worse skate and situation. Thanks, everyone, and keep it up!!!
